The Corner of Insanity

( Random navel-gazing here )

I still bring you goodies.

And man, has it knocked my head clean off. Yesterday I woke up with the headache, took some medicine, promptly threw it up and spent 20 minutes shaking and sweating over the toilet. Spent the rest of the day shaky, sweating, and in a lot of head pain. Managed to keep a little food down.

Tried to sleep, that didn't go so well. I'd either be too cold or sweating from being hot.

So far it's mostly better this morning, pain wise. But my head is still barely attached to my shoulders, and I'm still not comfortable with my temperature feelings (I'm either too hot or too cold, can't find a medium). It's like there's pressure in my head, but I'm not feeling it.

So yes, this migraine has kicked my ass, stood over me, and laughed about it. Not moving is real high on my agenda again today.

Taking a broom to the corners of my mind...

Changed up the theme to try to get away from mental darkness at the moment. Much thanks to stellastars for offering this wonderful free layout.

Have any of y'all been diagnosed with fibromyalgia? If so, how did you and your doctor(s) come about that diagnosis? What do you do to treat it? The PT lady mentioned it as a strong possibility, considering my physical issues, but I don't want to jump into Internet-condria and proclaim that I definitely have it. I want to know the steps my doctor and I will have to take to either rule it out or confirm it.

He's says I'm OK, mostly. The increased heart-rate is not an arrhythmia, just a fast heart rate. He's checking my thyroid levels, but he's very sure that it's just due to borderline dehydration. I need to be more aware of drinking water, and add a touch of salt to my diet to help balance my electrolytes.

Now, I'm going back to bed. I'm still very tired and worn out from yesterday.

( I'm OK now, but... )

I have teh pleh. Feels like a combination of a stomach bug and the flu. *whines*

Title: Nothing So Beautiful
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: innuendo
Word count: 860
Prompt: Trish and Kyrie: O body swayed to music, O brightening glance / How can we know the dancer from the dance?

...you can't open the bag of chocolate.

*headdesk*

Sorry for being MIA that last several days... been sick, exhausted, and not sleeping, and needed to crawl into my shell for a bit.

Wrote something for ffvii_100's prompt of "Self Inclusion" called Get Away. Might try to write one or two more things.

Working on two no_true_pair prompts at a time, trying to keep my brain interested. All the DMC stuff keeps wanting to turn into OMGEpicFic and I'm trying to keep sane. :-p

Started in on another no_true_pair, the Jan 1 Dante and Maria prompt. 700 words and I'm probably halfway or less through it.

But, I have to stop now. Pacemaker check-up, which is never fun. They speed up my heart to 100 bpm, then mis-fire the leads one at a time to make sure they're working properly.

After that, I'm heading to Game Stop to pick up my reserved copy of Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories for PS2 and then we'll see how I feel. I've not eaten much today (not worth it with the doctor's appointment), I might take myself out to dinner.

I am home. The doctor looked me over and took several x-rays, and sees no indication of clots or bone chips. I fell hard against the wall yesterday during a dizzy spell on a shoulder that has been giving me trouble since I got into a car wreck 15 years ago.

It's just badly bruised, one of those deep tissue bruises that will take time to heal. I have a sling to wear for a few days (more to remind myself not to use it than anything else), prescription strength ibuprofen to take for a week, and some heavy duty painkillers for when it's really bad.

Thank y'all so much for the messages. I appreciate all the support. :-) I hope I didn't sound too much like a crazy drama queen. *sheepish*

Now I will take one of those pain killers and head to bed.

I'm about to take myself to the nearest Urgent Care. I have had a severe pain in my left shoulder all day, and I've developed a bruise on my left hand and occasional prick of heat-pain in my left wrist. This is very very troubling to me because almost exactly two years ago I developed blood clots of out the blue.

My heart is racing and my hands are shaking, and I don't know how much is terror, and how much is a problem.

I'll post again as soon as I can.

( Cut to spare the flist )

This is about to become fact, which has potential repercussions to go WAY beyond the obvious pro-lifer's no abortions thing.

We won't even mention the horrifying image that someone on the medical team could decide to have a crisis of conscious while you're strapped to the table and walk away.

Oops, I did.

Stop this. Go to Planned Parenthood and see how to help them stop this. Call/write/email your Senators and Legislators and tell this to stop this. Write/email/call McCain and Obama and tell them to stop this.

Unfortunately, it looks like I'm the only one who posted anything. :-(

Title: (untitled)
Rating: G
Fandom: Devil May Cry
Char/Pair: Kyrie
Prompt: Hymnal
W/C: 864
A/N: Original hymn lyrics, no offense intended by my re-working of them. Set post DMC4.

Had a bad headache yesterday, due to a summer thunderstorm appearing out of nowhere and deciding that my neighborhood was the best place to have a target practice session with it's lightning. Still very groggy and out of it today.

Since all but three letters were taken, I'm exercising my write (HA! I'll leave the typo) to choose topics and ramble at will. ;-) I'm going to break this up and cut it to save the F-list.

( Anime for elfflame )

( Biology for me )

( "cowabunga, dude" for tracichan )

( Devil May Cry for tracichan )

( Exercise for me )

Ugh. Didn't sleep well, arthritis is acting up. I cannot wait until this is done with.

Title: Burning
Rating: PG
Warnings: Underaged (by American standards) drinking
Word count: 158
areyougame Prompt: July 17 - Final Fantasy XII, Balthier/Vaan: inebriated - the boy was adorable when filled with spirits
A/N: Definitely not my best writing. Balthier just comes across wrong. Ah well, learn from it and move on. Crossposted to skypirates

Title: Save Me
Rating: G
Warnings: minor pre-game spoilers
Word count: 654
Prompt: July 14 - Suikoden V - Arshtat/Ferid - barbarism/exoticism - never seen anything quite like him before

Didn't do much this weekend... arthritis is acting up.

( The writing stuff )

( Saw a new doctor today... )

Title: (untitled) (just not getting inspired for titles this month)
Rating: PG
Warnings: Innuendo
Word count: 251
areyougame Prompt: July 7 - Kingdom Hearts II, Leon/Cloud, partners - got your back
A/N: Takes place during Kingdom Hearts II
Crossposted to kingdomhearts

het_challenge is open for claiming, and there's some really good stuff!

Going back to work today... hopefully I still have a job. :-p Need to call a real doctor and make an appointment to sit down and talk to them about what's going on.